I don't know what to say.....its been a while since i have blogged. And the last time i have done so was when i was emotionally disturbed. Does that mean i am right now? Probably not. I've been constantly thinking and thinking......i don't even know if i was really thinking half of the time. Maybe just looking into the skies.....with no purpose.
I don't know what say.....again. Don't you just love that? ...........there is another special one.....that i have thought of. She's ............ indescribable. I don't have that strong of an attachment to her.....but the one thing i do feel......is her pain. Because it was mine.
I think it first started when she grabbed me by the arms and walked me with. It was more like i was suppose escort her, so that she can evade her stalker. When she held me by my arms.....at first i wanted to evade her because i wasn't used to it. But gradually, i began to accept it. Why? I don't know, maybe because i was trying to picture the connection. ------I don't know.....
I don't know how guys make it the hall of fame for not listening.....but -----when she was talking about her ex, it was as if my heart was ripped out of my chest.....what made it even greater was the fact that i knew how she felt. I had the same feeling before......but much worst.
-------I don't know what to say.......
Friday, April 2, 2010
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
The NightMare
January 26, 2010:
I went to sleep last night, after partially helping out a friend setting up her computer remotely from my home. I was awefully tired, and told my friend (Sherly) that i'll continue tommorrow. I dropped and slept........
I had the weirdest nightmare........now its 9:53Am and i could only remember parts of it, the most frigthening part. The part when "my someone" lashed back at me. Telling me that she knows and that she found it as really annoying due to the fact that everyone else does. And i could vaguely recall that she said that its never going to happen....-----maybe now i'm just making up stuff......I was awefully confused, and completely shattered. I wanted to cry, but not in front of her.
I woke up.....and it was 8:50AM.
Now, whenever i look at her picture...........i fear of that nightmare. The fear of ever ----making her mad or annoyed.......which is heart wrecking.......
I went to sleep last night, after partially helping out a friend setting up her computer remotely from my home. I was awefully tired, and told my friend (Sherly) that i'll continue tommorrow. I dropped and slept........
I had the weirdest nightmare........now its 9:53Am and i could only remember parts of it, the most frigthening part. The part when "my someone" lashed back at me. Telling me that she knows and that she found it as really annoying due to the fact that everyone else does. And i could vaguely recall that she said that its never going to happen....-----maybe now i'm just making up stuff......I was awefully confused, and completely shattered. I wanted to cry, but not in front of her.
I woke up.....and it was 8:50AM.
Now, whenever i look at her picture...........i fear of that nightmare. The fear of ever ----making her mad or annoyed.......which is heart wrecking.......
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